sorry i havent updated in a super long time. i kind of forgot that this existed. haha. i also recently forget that my pet turtle existed, the poor little guy! he finally got fed today for the first time in like 2 weeks. hahaha. thats okay, hes a bore anyways. haha jk jk thats so mean of me!
rewind:friday anyways, this week was homecoming week. the football game on friday kinda sucked because 1. luke didnt get to play, 2. we lost again and 3. it was just a boring game. so grant and i left early, at the beginning of the fourth quarter.
playthrough:saturday okay so yesterday was homecoming, and it was a fun day. i woke up and showered and changed and cleaned my room a little. then i went and picked up the boutinniere for grant. then i came home for a while and dilly-dallied and did basically nothing. haha. at 2 i went to get my nails done and the woman there really liked me, it was pretty funny. anyways, i came home and my mom promised me shed be home by 330 at the latest to help me get ready, and she didnt come home until like 430 so i was all stressed and irritable. poor tahiya came over and saw me be all irritated. anyways. people came over at 5 and my neighbor took pictures because she really wanted to [[shes a professional photographer]]. she gave me disks with the pictures today, they turned out nicely. and then we went to dinner and were a little late but it was okay. we went to pacifica del mar, it had a really nice ocean view and it was nice. after dinner we went to school and the line to get in was super long, even though we were like 45 minutes late. everyone decided to hop into grants car and we waited for a little bit and decided to go in line. when we got inside i was surprised there werent that many people there, and there was no line to get pictures. strangeee. haha. anyways, the dj kinda really sucked, and we left a little early. grant brought me home so i could grab my stuff [[i slept over at beckas]] and so i could get my car. then we went to vons to get ice cream and blockbuster to get movies. then we went over to beckas. everyone else left at around 1, but becka, holly, luke, grant, and i were there for longer. holly and i slept over, and luke and grant stayed until 4. we were watching movies, but i fell asleep like, less than half way through the first movie and woke up like, towards the end of the second movie. poor grant, his arm mustve been dying because i was laying next to him, and his arm was under me. anyways, after they left, beckaand i went downstairs and ate, and then went upstairs to her room and layed in bed and talked for a while. holly was sleeping but then woke up and came in too, and we ended up falling asleep a little after that.
anyways, it was a fun night. gotta go to bed now though. bye kiddoes !
TGIF. ugh. this week was so hectic and pointless. so much stupid pointless drama thats completely unnecessary and avoidable. i think its just stuck up, and people just need to get over themselves. like, okay, if you did something i dont like, then its not my fault you dont like it. you dont have to be rude or mean to me over it. just get over it because i really dont care what you think. but i do care if youre disrespectful to me.
anyways, this weekend is going to be busy. i might work tomorrow morning, i dont really know because courtnie hasnt called me back yet to let me know whats going on. i need to get tahiyas present, i dont really know what to get her. then...sunday is tahiyas SUPER late birthday party thing hahaha. oh well.
i dont really have anything else to share, its been a rough couple of days and i dont know what to make of everything. im kind of a mental mess right now, but whatever. haha. byee !
why hello again ! well lets see what theres to say. okay well i guess ill just tell you about my weekend. well yesterday becka, grant and i went to the football game vs. cathedral. i met michael hawkadorians girlfriend, katelyn, and her sister, kelsey. they go to mira mesa, and they look alike. anyways, becka eventually left grant and me to go sit with some other people because those girls were really bothering her and she couldnt take it. it was kinda funny. they were kinda annoying but it was fun just to listen to them talk and stuff, even if some of the stuff was kinda mean. but it was fun. i was totally rooting for wv the whole time because i knew we could win pretty sure we were going to lose before the game even started because we suck. hahaha. no offense to all my friendies on the team. i dont understand why we lose so much, they practice just as much as the other teams. we didnt lose as badly to cathedral as we did to esco though, it was only 0-47. haha. or maybe it was 42, im not really sure? afterwards i got some food, and went over to beckas. we had a sleepover, which was pretty fun i suppose. it was becka, holly, arielle, and me. we just talked a lot, and "lucina" aka luke was on speakerphone listening to us, and he doesnt understand how girls can talk so much. haha.
today i woke up at like 11, and just brushed my teeth and stuff. then i left beckas after a little bit and came home and did some homework. i should probably try and get a little more done tonight, because im not really doing anything. i was planning on hanging out with grant today for his birthday [[its tomorrow]] but then he decided to go to the UCLA football game with danny, so were just gunna do something tomorrow. so tomorrow i dont really know what were doing, but i think well all probably do something for grants bday. and then i have to study for my first apbio test. ahh im so scared for that.
anyways, lifes not too exciting, but i gotta go! bye !
hi again. ive decided to start updating this again since summers over and schools back. so schools already been going for a little over a week, and i cant say that i love it or hate it. id definitely choose summer over school any day, but who wouldnt?
okay so let me tell you about my summer. i dont really know where to begin. well i didnt get to play water polo because i was so busy with everything else, so that kinda sucked. i babysat aidan a ton, and i taught swim lessons whenever i got a chance. i swam but not as much as usual. i went to yosemite for a week and then my family and i went to las vegas for a week. the whole summer was kind of work until the end of july, and i started having fun then. over the summer becka and i started hanging out with luke, danny, and grant kind of a lot, and grant and i are together now. i started lovingjustin timberlake and christina aguilera again, because theyre just so damn awesome. haha. justin timberlake is just awesome, who the hell wouldve thought of making a song like sexyback? and i love christina aguilera for always reinventing herself, i really like her "baby jane" phase that shes going through right now, i didnt like so much when she was all "stripped" and stuff earlier though.
okay so i guess well talk about school now. im taking ap calc, apush, and ap bio. i was supposed to have photography, but they messed up my schedule so now i just have off role. but thats good i guess, because i wont die (hopefully) when water polo and swim season roll around. i have sawaya for calc, hes kind of strange. i dont really know what to make of him. poblete for apush, shes a little annoying. i dont know, shes nice, but theres something about her that just bothers me. and i have rankin for bio. hes funny when hes in a good mood, but he gets aggrivated easily so i think hed be scary when he got mad.
okay so it makes me sad that its labor day weekend, because that means summers over. friday night i lifeguarded from 6-9 which was kind of a bummer because the swim girls were having a dinner and movie night, and i really wanted to go. yesterday becka and i went and got pedicures, and then we met up with breeann for dinner. it was pretty fun, i must admit. haha. and then today i stayed home for most of the day, but i went over to lukes around 7. becka was already there, and later grant and danny came over. tomorrow im going mini golfing with grant, so that should be fun. then some homework, and back to school on tuesday. ugh. haha.
well i guess theres not really much to say. ill try to update as much as possible, but i dont really know how much thatll be this year. see ya later kids !
okay so today i got the red hot chili peppers cd FiNALLY. ive gone like every weekend for the past month and its finally there. its always been sold out, and it really bothered me. haha. and i absolutely L0VE it. i love rhcp. im so sad i cant go to their concert. but oh well, maybe another time. also, i went bowling with michael and becka and that was pretty fun. mark was working too so we got food for really cheap. thanks buddy. yeah. were not exactly the greatest bowlers in the world. hah...
okay so heres all the crap thats been building up in my head about the past year and how the years ending. it always saddens me when the year ends.
so i cant believe that the year is practically over. three days left of sophomore year. and thenim going to be a junior?! those words are ringing in my ears. "I'm going to be a junior." i cant believe it. this is all happening so fast. is life supposed to happen this quickly? am i supposed to feel like crying when i see everyone leaving? why do i feel like im being left behind, but not really? why does it feel like yesterday was my first day of freshman year, sitting in math, completely terrified of what would become of me during high school? and yet, i feel like ive lived this life before, like ive been through these mundane schedules for so long. its been so long, yet so short. i feel like yes, im supposed to be a junior soon, but just not yet. i dont want to be a junor. because that just means im one year away from being a senior, and then off to college i go. i dont want to grow up. i dont want to have to say goodbye to everyone so soon. im not ready to say goodbye.
ive been through so much stuff this year. with my family, and with myself. ive thought in the past "sophomore year has been the worst year in my life", but now im really glad that everything happened the way it did. sure, if i could i might go back and do something differently, but really, would i ? everything bad thats happened this year has taught me something about myself. yes, i was an emotional wreck the first half of the year, but then i came back and im feeling better than ever. without the downs, what would the ups feel like? they wouldnt even be great anymore. theyd just be normal. you wouldnt even realize that they were great. and youd never have that feeling of overcoming those obstacles that totally turn youre life upside down. its good to know that even though all this stuff happened, i still made it out with just a scratch. i made it through alright, and im perfectly fine. i feel better than i ever have, i feel so much more confident with who i am. okay, you dont have to like me, thats fine. but i like me. and thats all that really matters. if you dont like me, dont talk to me. because im proud of who i am. and i dont mean that in a cocky way. im just really glad that ive finally become comfortable in my own skin. i know exactly who i am, and thats something no one can take away from me. i feel so much stronger now that im doing stuff for myself, opposed to previously when i did everything for everyone but myself.
its just scary for me to think that i may never see any of these people in my life again. what if i never see those seniors that ive learned so much from ever again? what if all the girls from swim and water polo just leave and scatter in our own directions? weve all bonded so much and learned so much from each other, its scary to think that it will all just suddenly be lost and gone forever. what if after i graduate, i never talk to my group of friends again? what if i dont talk to my best friend anymore? what if college and the real world changes us so much that we cant be friends any more? how, as a person, are you supposed to deal with all of this? do you just accept that everythings going to change, or do you try and salvage whats left of a friendship while you still can? when you come back home for the holidays, do you just decide to leave them with their family and you with yours, or do you risk the awkward silences in each others presence, where you both realize theres nothing left for you to say to each other, and your friendship evaporates right then and there? i guess in a way, im afraid that this sudden loss of friendship will happen to me.
i guess our fears of loneliness and the unknown trigger all these emotions. its one of those times when youre five, and you wish you were sixteen so you could drive, and your parents tell you "enjoy being young while you can". its too bad you dont understand this right then. but at least as we get a little further into our adolescence we begin to understand. at least its not too late.
they say to live each day like theres no tomorrow. yet they tell us to go to school and do our homework every day. they tell you to work hard in school so you can get into this college. they tell you to do everything right now in preparation to the future. what if you never make it that far? if you were to die tomorrow, would you honestly be thinking, "Thank goodness I did my humanities homework"? i highly doubt it.
its weird how im scared of this all. but im really excited too. i feel like my lifes just beginning. i dont really know how to react to all of this. i guess its what everyone has to go through.
and the worst part is...i have so many questions left unanswered.
he finally got fed today for the first time in like 2 weeks. hahaha. thats okay, hes a bore anyways. haha jk jk thats so mean of me! 
at 2 i went to get my nails done and the woman there really liked me, it was pretty funny. anyways, i came home and my mom promised me shed be home by 330 at the latest to help me get ready, and she didnt come home until like 430 so i was all stressed and irritable. poor tahiya came over and saw me be all irritated. 
anyways. people came over at 5 and my neighbor took pictures because she really wanted to [[shes a professional photographer]]. she gave me disks with the pictures today, they turned out nicely. 
and then we went to dinner and were a little late but it was okay. we went to pacifica del mar, it had a really nice ocean view and it was nice. 
strangeee. haha. anyways, the dj kinda really sucked, and we left a little early. grant brought me home so i could grab my stuff [[i slept over at beckas]] and so i could get my car. then we went to vons to get ice cream and blockbuster to get movies. then we went over to beckas. everyone else left at around 1, but becka, holly, luke, grant, and i were there for longer. holly and i slept over, and luke and grant stayed until 4. we were watching movies, but i fell asleep like, less than half way through the first movie and woke up like, towards the end of the second movie. poor grant, his arm mustve been dying because i was laying next to him, and his arm was under me. anyways, after they left, becka and i went downstairs and ate, and then went upstairs to her room and layed in bed and talked for a while. holly was sleeping but then woke up and came in too, and we ended up falling asleep a little after that. 
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so schools already been going for a little over a week, and i cant say that i love it or hate it. id definitely choose summer over school any day, but who wouldnt?
but oh well, maybe another time. also, i went bowling with michael and becka and that was pretty fun. mark was working too so we got food for really cheap. thanks buddy. 
yeah. were not exactly the greatest bowlers in the world. hah...
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